Have you ever stopped to think; why you do what do and why with the amount of effort that you put into it? There are times throughout my day or week that I can feel the pressure of things; the pressure of maintaining a clean house, the pressure of making sure the needs of my kids are met, the pressure of attending to my husband, the pressure of my job; did my students learn today, was I aware of certain situations? Even the pressure of making time for the Lord.
When I consider all of these things; I realize that; I don't feel pressure because of the expectation of others. My pressure comes from my fear of failing ... Pride! I don't like to fail, or fall short at anything I do. And I understand the need to want to do things well and achieve your goals, but, when it takes you to a place of condemnation or discouragement, those goals now become unhealthy.
Today, I understand why pride was the driving force in my life at one time. For years I was told that I was not going to be anything or make it in life. Everything about my life started backwards. I didn't travel on the traditional path of family, education, and marriage. And although I have those things now, when I obtained them, there was a great amount of pressure I had while doing it; the pressure to do what everyone said I couldn't, the pressure to make sure my future didn't look like my past, and the pressure to beat the odds. At times I feel the pressure of maintaining this blog. And although my heart is be a good steward over what the Lord has given me, I wouldn't be human if I didn't admit the pressure I put on myself to deliver it all. Wondering if someone was encouraged and hoping that I clearly stated the message.
As a woman you feel the pressure to maintain a certain image of a "woman"; to always be caring, nurturing, and supportive. To have a certain amount of grace about yourself. To be the woman to handle it all. But the truth is; I don't always feel like being that woman. Some days I don't want to talk to or encourage someone. Some days I just want to come home and hide in my room ( and I have). Some days I just want to just ... be! There are times when those feelings may be appropriate, but, you know what I have learned? These feelings only arise in me when the pressure is on. When I have allowed myself to entertain pride and now I am on the course to get it all done.
It's a blessing to have a family and a home to make memories in. I'm honored to be able to satisfy the needs of my husband and walk along side him as he leads our family. I'm humbled that the Lord has found me fit to teach HIS children, and I am grateful that he has chosen to use me as HIS tool for this blog. So when the pressure is on, I have to check myself ... quickly, because I am now flowing in pride. Life can be a little easier and less complicated if we stop trying to do it all and be it all ... and just be who the Lord has called you to be.
Remember, surrender all...
Tynisha
When I consider all of these things; I realize that; I don't feel pressure because of the expectation of others. My pressure comes from my fear of failing ... Pride! I don't like to fail, or fall short at anything I do. And I understand the need to want to do things well and achieve your goals, but, when it takes you to a place of condemnation or discouragement, those goals now become unhealthy.
Today, I understand why pride was the driving force in my life at one time. For years I was told that I was not going to be anything or make it in life. Everything about my life started backwards. I didn't travel on the traditional path of family, education, and marriage. And although I have those things now, when I obtained them, there was a great amount of pressure I had while doing it; the pressure to do what everyone said I couldn't, the pressure to make sure my future didn't look like my past, and the pressure to beat the odds. At times I feel the pressure of maintaining this blog. And although my heart is be a good steward over what the Lord has given me, I wouldn't be human if I didn't admit the pressure I put on myself to deliver it all. Wondering if someone was encouraged and hoping that I clearly stated the message.
As a woman you feel the pressure to maintain a certain image of a "woman"; to always be caring, nurturing, and supportive. To have a certain amount of grace about yourself. To be the woman to handle it all. But the truth is; I don't always feel like being that woman. Some days I don't want to talk to or encourage someone. Some days I just want to come home and hide in my room ( and I have). Some days I just want to just ... be! There are times when those feelings may be appropriate, but, you know what I have learned? These feelings only arise in me when the pressure is on. When I have allowed myself to entertain pride and now I am on the course to get it all done.
It's a blessing to have a family and a home to make memories in. I'm honored to be able to satisfy the needs of my husband and walk along side him as he leads our family. I'm humbled that the Lord has found me fit to teach HIS children, and I am grateful that he has chosen to use me as HIS tool for this blog. So when the pressure is on, I have to check myself ... quickly, because I am now flowing in pride. Life can be a little easier and less complicated if we stop trying to do it all and be it all ... and just be who the Lord has called you to be.
Remember, surrender all...
Tynisha
Amen well said, I too deal with pride and I have to take a step and look and see how blessed I am. It was hard for me to except compliments from others becuase I would say no im not or if they offered me something I'll say I don't need it and deep down I was knowing that I really did. That is a sign of pride and God is definitely dealing with me on that. I can say that I am truly overcoming that. I surrendered all to him. Thanks for sharing Tynisha from Ebony
ReplyDeleteWHEW JESUS! Yes! So true!
ReplyDeleteLadies, let's 'Thank God' for HIS delivering hand! Amen, Amen, Amen.
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